Confidence

I have grown up as a rather privileged child in the sense that I don't remember a time that I wasn't confident in myself. I was 5 years old when I began competing in highland dance so all stage fright was knocked out of me at a very young age and has made it possible for me to be relatively successful in some difficult areas of life. Now, please please please don't get this mixed up with ego (something many people accuse me for since I play trumpet). I think ego is when someone is so full of themselves they can't do anything but try to convince people how great they are and need all kinds of great feedback if they are going to keep breathing- I am the one who can't stand applause.

My point with this is this- we all need to be a little confident. God throws so many things at us every day that really test us and push us to the limit. Our confidence doesn't come into play the way it should until we are confident enough to say "I can't do this alone, God please help!". We all have one thing in common that should make us the most confident people around- we have God on our side. We can do anything as long as we recognize that and keep that as a focus in our lives!

I am about to move to Richmond, VA to start a new journey. I am a homebody and Richmond is just a few hours away. I spent 4 1/2 years studying music, not religion. I am entering seminary the way I entered music theory- the bare bones knowledge, but it seems like everyone else knows everything and is ready to analyze some Chopin while I am still figuring how that is a V chord. I feel like I have every reason to freak out right now and run the other direction, however I know that I have God on my side, and I look at all the things he has helped me to do in the past so I KNOW that I can do this as well. I mean, hey, I did finally get through 5 levels of theory in addition to advanced tonal analysis!

I'm going to leave with this prayer now, because it is only here because of God's help. Just another way he has helped me overcome some crazy stuff...

The Lord's Prayer