Changes

I don't know where this one will go, but stick with me.

Every one of us reaches a point in our life where things are going to change. I think it is quite obvious that I have hit a major changing point. The thing that sucks is this turning point is a lot harder than I ever expected it to be. I have learned more about myself in the last month than I ever wanted to know, and am continuing to learn more. I am moving away from the people that I love most to go have everything I have ever believed, challenged. I am changing career paths and most likely putting the trumpet aside for a while, just when my job schedule and playing has really reached a strong point. Nothing is easy right now.

The worst part of this not being easy thing is that it led me to make some incredibly hard decisions, the hardest of which was to end the most important and fulfilling relationship that I have ever been in. Anyone who ever met Bobby and knows us together probably knows how hard this is. He has been incredible to me, and I have only let him down right now. But sometimes we have to make these hard decisions so that we can move forward. I won't go into details because this isn't the time or place, but I do continue to pray about this and hope that we can make another change in the future.

But sometimes that is how it is. You make one decision that is great, and all the sudden everything after that is a bit more complicated. Here is how I see it though- for every complication that you are able to overcome, you are that much stronger. These are the times that it is so important for us to turn to God and FROG (fully rely on God). He can and will help us get to where we need to be as long as we put all of our faith in him.

I am currently taking part in a Community of Learning through Union. Our most recent discussions were about the separation and combination of theological analysis and faith. When I decided that I needed to go to Seminary, many people told me to be careful because they will "knock the faith out of me". We discussed this online and why some people say this. Here is the thing- when you are studying the Bible the way they do in theological institutions, you are looking a lot deeper than you do in a Sunday School class. I mentioned that being able to keep your faith strong and your studies strong can work hand in hand, avoiding the destruction of faith, but that you must be very prayerful in your study and keep a focus on your faith and studies, that this was a challenge that would only make us stronger as ministers later on. The same works in life- we must stay prayerful and keep faith as our central focus. Things get to be really tough sometimes, just when you think they are going great. Other times they can be really easy. As long as you keep in contact with God through prayer and admit that you really need him in your life, guiding you down the road, I think you will come out ok.

I do ask that you keep me in your prayers as I begin down this road. I don't know what will happen next but I do know that everything is made easier with God's help and the love and support from others. And now, I am going to end this before I completely lose it lol.

Thanks y'all! And keep checking back... I'll have something fun next time :)