Defying Gravity
Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!
It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!
ohh ohhh ohhhh!
Monday, January 25, 2010
Monday, January 18, 2010
So many thoughts.
Tomorrow is the first day of what SHOULD be my last semester in college. Part of me is really happy it isn't, because that would mean that this new life I have found and love so much would be over a lot sooner than it will be. But that is the only reason I am glad I am sticking around. Not gonna lie... it went through my head a lot lately to just drop the ed major and get out of here in May with everyone else that I started with. Obviously I am keeping it, mainly because I know that it could be the extra push for future jobs (Churches would probably be a lot more willing to hire someone who wants to do youth music if they have a music ed degree). Is that bad? Well, either way, my last semester of college classes starts tomorrow (student teaching in the Fall). It is kinda scary... (not to mention it means I have to be a college student again and I have loved not being one for the last month).
On another note, I am almost done with applications. I have to get a few recommendation letters out to people, type up an essay, and put one app in the mail. It is all so real now... I love it. I am working on scheduling a road trip over spring break to Union and Pittsburgh to check them out in person. I will schedule Columbia after I get through my recital. That is assuming I don't go sooner to do an interview (I am hoping I can figure something out so I don't have to go there for the interview). So I guess I will keep y'all posted about what is going on... I know the Pitts application is closed out so I should hear from them within the next month. Assuming things go as scheduled I should hear from Union not too long after that.
Now... time to get ready for this week.
Tomorrow is the first day of what SHOULD be my last semester in college. Part of me is really happy it isn't, because that would mean that this new life I have found and love so much would be over a lot sooner than it will be. But that is the only reason I am glad I am sticking around. Not gonna lie... it went through my head a lot lately to just drop the ed major and get out of here in May with everyone else that I started with. Obviously I am keeping it, mainly because I know that it could be the extra push for future jobs (Churches would probably be a lot more willing to hire someone who wants to do youth music if they have a music ed degree). Is that bad? Well, either way, my last semester of college classes starts tomorrow (student teaching in the Fall). It is kinda scary... (not to mention it means I have to be a college student again and I have loved not being one for the last month).
On another note, I am almost done with applications. I have to get a few recommendation letters out to people, type up an essay, and put one app in the mail. It is all so real now... I love it. I am working on scheduling a road trip over spring break to Union and Pittsburgh to check them out in person. I will schedule Columbia after I get through my recital. That is assuming I don't go sooner to do an interview (I am hoping I can figure something out so I don't have to go there for the interview). So I guess I will keep y'all posted about what is going on... I know the Pitts application is closed out so I should hear from them within the next month. Assuming things go as scheduled I should hear from Union not too long after that.
Now... time to get ready for this week.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Hold Your Dreams (Fame)
I can't say much more than these lyrics because they say them all. This is the theme song of this next semester and is taped in the very front of my notebook.
Countless hours of learning more
Countless hours of knowing less
Can't look behind you
You have to look ahead.
So many doubts running through your mind
All the excuses
Don't have the time
All the rejection you have to leave behind
Leave it all behind
Hold your dreams
Don't ever let them go
Be yourself
And let the world take notice
You'll find strength
When people bring you down
They will see
If you will only, only believe
Someway, Somehow (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't give up now (Don't give up)
Don't be afraid to succeed (to succeed, yeah)
Someway, somehow (Come on, everybody)
The time is right now (It's our time, yeah)
Don't be afraid to succeed (to succeed, yeah!)
Hold your dreams
Don't ever let it go
Be yourself
And let the world take notice
You'll find strength
When people bring you down
They will see
If you will only, only believe.
Countless hours of learning more
Countless hours of knowing less
Can't look behind you
You have to look ahead.
So many doubts running through your mind
All the excuses
Don't have the time
All the rejection you have to leave behind
Leave it all behind
Hold your dreams
Don't ever let them go
Be yourself
And let the world take notice
You'll find strength
When people bring you down
They will see
If you will only, only believe
Someway, Somehow (Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don't give up now (Don't give up)
Don't be afraid to succeed (to succeed, yeah)
Someway, somehow (Come on, everybody)
The time is right now (It's our time, yeah)
Don't be afraid to succeed (to succeed, yeah!)
Hold your dreams
Don't ever let it go
Be yourself
And let the world take notice
You'll find strength
When people bring you down
They will see
If you will only, only believe.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Thought of the day...
Why, when people disagree wholeheartedly with something you are doing, do you push even harder? Yet, when people think its great and seem to be looking for ways to help you, do we let go?
Seriously. It is the story of my last two weeks. I feel like I am running in blind circles right now. I know the end result either way, yet I can't seem to just take a single path and finally get to the result. Probably cause I don't like the result, and me being me, I feel like there is still time to change it.
On another note, I will be sending out Seminary application #2 this week and then finally starting on #3. Hopefully I can close these out before life get's too crazy. It is still crazy early, but I know that once class starts the last thing I want to do is try to write another essay, especially one as important as these are. It has been really interesting though. I have found out so much about myself over the last few months, especially the times I was writing essays, that I really don't think I would have learned any other way. I may complain sometimes about the essays, but I understand 100% why I have to write them. Very exciting :)
That's it for now. Once I can actually form these thoughts flying around in my head I might write some more.
Why, when people disagree wholeheartedly with something you are doing, do you push even harder? Yet, when people think its great and seem to be looking for ways to help you, do we let go?
Seriously. It is the story of my last two weeks. I feel like I am running in blind circles right now. I know the end result either way, yet I can't seem to just take a single path and finally get to the result. Probably cause I don't like the result, and me being me, I feel like there is still time to change it.
On another note, I will be sending out Seminary application #2 this week and then finally starting on #3. Hopefully I can close these out before life get's too crazy. It is still crazy early, but I know that once class starts the last thing I want to do is try to write another essay, especially one as important as these are. It has been really interesting though. I have found out so much about myself over the last few months, especially the times I was writing essays, that I really don't think I would have learned any other way. I may complain sometimes about the essays, but I understand 100% why I have to write them. Very exciting :)
That's it for now. Once I can actually form these thoughts flying around in my head I might write some more.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
A Fresh Start
On the way home tonight I got thinking about the different things in my life. My conclusion? Life is GREAT! I have some incredible friends in all areas of my life, I am doing what I love (or rather getting back to it), and have some crazy plans for the next few years that are really exciting and things that I never planned for during the last 21 years.
Then I realized the biggest reason I get down on myself. I have a blog and use it regularly, but it is always venting. When I get upset about something going on with one my friends or a conversation or a class, I go to that blog and vent. Yes, it is good to vent, but it helps when it isn't all the time and when more than 2 people have access to those vents. I think that was the biggest problem as well... only two people knew about it and I am pretty sure neither one really followed (with reason) so it really did me no good and gave me even more reason to just let loose.
SO... this blog is going to be where I put my thoughts. Good and bad. I really think this is what will finally help me let go a few things (when you continually complain about them, it is really hard to let them go) and really appreciate the good things in life. I am generally a very happy person, and I want to be able to keep that going :)
Be warned though that things may sometimes take the "churchy spin" because that is a MAJOR factor in my life and I will not hold back when I get on a thought. I am applying to seminary and want to be a youth minister so there will probably be a whole lot of that. This is not to turn anyone away, but it is basically to tell you to save your breath if later on you don't like what I am talking about. I really want to hear comments and opinions, but know that if you start complaining about the mere fact that I am talking about God, then I won't apologize.
For now, I am going to get going and review my lesson for tomorrow. Lots of thoughts coming your way though! Be excited... or bored. Either one works for me!
God Bless!
Then I realized the biggest reason I get down on myself. I have a blog and use it regularly, but it is always venting. When I get upset about something going on with one my friends or a conversation or a class, I go to that blog and vent. Yes, it is good to vent, but it helps when it isn't all the time and when more than 2 people have access to those vents. I think that was the biggest problem as well... only two people knew about it and I am pretty sure neither one really followed (with reason) so it really did me no good and gave me even more reason to just let loose.
SO... this blog is going to be where I put my thoughts. Good and bad. I really think this is what will finally help me let go a few things (when you continually complain about them, it is really hard to let them go) and really appreciate the good things in life. I am generally a very happy person, and I want to be able to keep that going :)
Be warned though that things may sometimes take the "churchy spin" because that is a MAJOR factor in my life and I will not hold back when I get on a thought. I am applying to seminary and want to be a youth minister so there will probably be a whole lot of that. This is not to turn anyone away, but it is basically to tell you to save your breath if later on you don't like what I am talking about. I really want to hear comments and opinions, but know that if you start complaining about the mere fact that I am talking about God, then I won't apologize.
For now, I am going to get going and review my lesson for tomorrow. Lots of thoughts coming your way though! Be excited... or bored. Either one works for me!
God Bless!
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