Sunday, July 29, 2012

"God Willing"

The following is the manuscript for my sermon at Starmount Presbyterian Church (Greensboro, NC), using 2 Kings 4: 42-44 and John 6: 1-14.

42 A man came from Baal Shalishah, bringing the man of God twenty loaves of barley bread baked from the first ripe grain, along with some heads of new grain. “Give it to the people to eat,” Elisha said.
43 “How can I set this before a hundred men?” his servant asked.
But Elisha answered, “Give it to the people to eat. For this is what the Lord says: ‘They will eat and have some left over. ’” 44 Then he set it before them, and they ate and had some left over, according to the word of the Lord.
2 Kings 4: 42-44


1"Some time after this, Jesus crossed to the far shore of the Sea of Galilee (that is, the Sea of Tiberias), and a great crowd of people followed him because they saw the signs he had performed by healing the sick. Then Jesus went up on a mountainside and sat down with his disciples. The Jewish Passover Festival was near.  
When Jesus looked up and saw a great crowd coming toward him, he said to Philip, “Where shall we buy bread for these people to eat?” He asked this only to test him, for he already had in mind what he was going to do. Philip answered him, “It would take more than half a year’s wages[a] to buy enough bread for each one to have a bite!”

Another of his disciples, Andrew, Simon Peter’s brother, spoke up, “Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?”

10 Jesus said, “Have the people sit down.” There was plenty of grass in that place, and they sat down (about five thousand men were there). 11 Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks, and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted. He did the same with the fish.

12 When they had all had enough to eat, he said to his disciples, “Gather the pieces that are left over. Let nothing be wasted.” 13 So they gathered them and filled twelve baskets with the pieces of the five barley loaves left over by those who had eaten.
14 After the people saw the sign Jesus performed, they began to say, “Surely this is the Prophet who is to come into the world.” 
John 6: 1-14 


            As many of you know, this past January I traveled to Ghana as part of one of Union’s travel seminars.  I could go on for hours about all that I saw and learned while I was there, but John and Kathryn would probably never ask me to preach again.  One major thing that I did witness though was how freely everyone that we met gave- not just of food and shelter, but of themselves.  During our travel around southern Ghana for those two weeks, we were provided with so much more than food, a bed, and the occasional welcome or parting gift.  We were welcomed and hosted by the most wonderful people I have ever met.  Today I might be able to tell you where every picture was taken if I thought really hard about it, but it takes no effort to remember the time spent with Rev. Kissi as he taught us Ghanaian songs while we were on the bus; or Mama Lucy and Daniel who were both overly excited to show us the town of Kumasi and share their knowledge of this cultural capital; or Victor, Jean Paul, and Rev. Agiti who were gracious enough to spend a week showing us mission sites of the Evangelical Presbyterian Church throughout Ho.  These people changed my life and the lives of the others in our group by merely opening their lives to God and allowing God to use them to feed and nurture us not just physically, but spiritually.

            Sammy, our bus driver, is probably the most memorable person we met while in Ghana.  Sammy had an infectious smile and laugh, loved to pick up some of our sayings as he tried to fit in with the crazy Americans who had high pitched voices, and always loved to tell us about the food we were eating, telling us “Eat it! It’s for you!”  Sammy always knew exactly which turn to take as he drove us all over southern Ghana, never using a GPS, and taught us that the best way to get somewhere is to make sure you stop and ask for directions if you think you might be lost- but always stop at least two times to make sure that people agree, and if they don’t, stop again.  Sammy was such a gracious and amazing person, leaving behind his wife and two very young children to spend two weeks with us.  Over the two weeks we learned all about Ghana through Sammy’s eyes, and all about Sammy- the young man who was saving up money to build a house for his family on the land he already bought, the man who bought a bus as a means to an end.  Most importantly, Sammy was our best friend and brother, the young man who completely handed over the reigns to God as he agreed to drive a group of ten crazy Americans around for two weeks- a job that is probably a whole lot harder than we could ever imagine.

            In today’s scripture readings, we find two very interesting events taking place.  First, we heard of Elisha feeding one hundred people with only twenty loaves of barley and grain.  Then we heard of Jesus and his disciples being presented with the issue of feeding not just a large crowd, but a crowd of five thousand people.  Both events seem next to impossible, yet in both cases they were successful to the point of left overs, very much like our experience in Ghana.

Now, let’s take a minute to figure out what that would entail for us here at Starmount- if we were to take on the 5,000 that Jesus and his disciples fed, first this upcoming renovation would have to be large enough that the fellowship hall could hold that many people.  My guess is that it holds about one hundred people right now, so it would have to be fifty times larger and with a much larger kitchen where every one of us would have to be working, along with a few others. Even at $1.00 per person for food costs, the total cost after everything else is added in, would blow the fellowship budget.  In short, this would not be an easy task and I doubt that the session would be ready to approve it.  So when Jesus asks Phillip where the food to feed this crowd is going to come from, I am sure Phillip looks at him like he is insane, even after he has seen Jesus perform many miracles already.  Phillip is quick to point out just how ridiculous the idea is- even six months wages would barely cover the cost.  Not to mention, my guess is that very few people even have that kind of money available after paying taxes and other monthly bills.  So here we are with Jesus testing Phillip, and Phillip looking at the facts but still failing.  Even in the reading from Second Kings, we find a servant questioning Elisha as to how he will use such a small amount of food to feed such a large crowd.
           
Finally, Andrew Simon chimes in and points out that a young boy nearby has food- maybe Andrew Simon is going to pass the test!  But alas, he too questions Jesus as to what good this small quantity of food will do.  I can only imagine the disappointment and annoyance that Jesus is feeling at this point.  It is probably similar to that of the teacher who has showed the student, told the student, and even spelled it out that 2+2=4, yet when asked, the student either doesn’t know or says the answer is five.  I am sure Rev. Kissi felt this way as he did his best to teach us correct pronunciations in the Twi language, and we failed miserably.
           
Jesus takes a deep breath and instructs the disciples to have everyone take a seat.  He then takes the loaves from the boy, gives thanks, and distributes them and does the same with the fish.  Being someone who loves math, I would like to point out that this means 1,000 servings came from each loaf and 2,500 from each fish.  What’s more is that there were left overs!
           
These aren’t just two coincidentally similar Bible stories that tell of some miraculous events- there is a point to be gleaned here.  God can do a whole lot with only a little.  Just like my hosts in Ghana who simply gave us their time and made that trip an experience that I will never forget, and one that has forever influenced my ministry- we need only provide the little we have for something incredible to happen.  I am sure that before we arrived, and even while we were there, they doubted that they had enough of anything for us- food, water, housing, knowledge to answer our many questions- however because they handed the situation over to God, everything fell into place.  There is an attitude of this in everything they do- always committing everything into the hands of God.  At first I was caught off guard when all plans were “God willing”, since I am used to hearing that more when someone is frustrated and giving up.  However there was such joy when Rev. Kissi would tell us the plans for the next day, “God willing”.  Of all things that I hold close from those two weeks, this attitude is one that has a special place in my life.  The attitude of “God willing” is one that fully recognizes God’s actions in one’s life.  It doesn’t matter if you make sure that you have everything you need so that it can be perfect on your end- if we do the best we can with what we have and recognize God’s action in our life and hand control over to God, God will take care of the rest. 
           
In today’s scripture readings, neither the servant nor the young boy had a clue what could be done with the small amount of food that he they had with them, yet they listened and gave the food anyway.  This wasn’t just any old food either- my guess is that the young boy was on his way home to take the food for his family to eat for dinner, making it a big deal that he gave it away under such vague circumstances.  However by giving away this small amount of food thousands were fed and my guess is he was probably even allowed to take home at least some of the leftovers.  Both the servant and the boy had a “God willing” attitude.

As I think about this “God willing” attitude, I think of the many ministries that we visited while visiting with the Evangelical Presbyterian Church in Ho.  One ministry that our seminar group decided to raise money for upon our return was the Dzemi Health Clinic.  This is a clinic run by one woman, Rosa, and her two assistants.  They have very little space- a building the size of the narthex just outside of this sanctuary, and very little medicine.  The roof leaked every time it rained and you could see the water stains all over the walls.  If I remember correctly, there were only three beds for the incredibly sick patients that came by, in addition to the two birthing beds.  When we visited, the front waiting hall was packed as people stood shoulder to shoulder, waiting for any assistance they could get.  Some would receive that assistance at the clinic, others would be sent to the hospital.  Some of them would add to the almost 500 babies that were delivered last year alone.  The Dzemi clinic is another representation of God taking something so incredibly small and seemingly insignificant, and reaching thousands of people.  As we stood there and talked to Rosa, she recognized this incredible gift from God, continually expressing that everything they had and needed was purely “God willing”.  I could not help but cry tears of joy when we returned to Richmond and after sharing the story of this incredible place with students, faculty, and friends of Union, raised the $1500 needed to fix the roof.  We have sent the check and now, Rosa will have a much safer place to help every person that walks through her doors.  While we were there, we asked Rosa how she stayed open and she told as that it was a blessing from God.  Yes, everything about Rosa and the Dzemi clinic truly reflects God’s blessing as Rosa, just like the young boy and the servant in today’s scriptures, gave the little bit that she had- herself- and let God do what was needed.
           
We can’t forget those disciples from our New Testament reading though.  When I was learning how to exegete scripture in my New Testament class last year, one of the questions we were told to ask was, “Who do you relate to in the text?” As much as I hate to admit it, when I asked that question as I studied these two texts, my answer was a mix of both the servant and the disciples.  As much as I try to keep that “God willing” attitude, I doubt and question God more than I like.   I doubted before seminary started, and still do on occasion, that I could even do this ministry thing- especially the preaching part.  I doubted that I would actually be able to go to Ghana and I continually wonder how God can use me to make a difference- just as the disciples wondered how such a small amount of food could make a difference.  The number of times I have asked God “are you sure about this?” is probably equal to the number of people that were fed that day on the hill.
           
Starmount is a church that I continually look towards for examples of this “God willing” attitude.  There are so many ministries going on here, making an incredible use of all that the church has- ranging from the prayer shawl ministry to sending members and friends of the congregation all over the world to serve God in a multitude of ways and working with refugee resettlement here in Greensboro.  Starmount has even opened its doors to young seminarians to come learn from John and Kathryn as interns just as Noe did, supporting them throughout the time at school, and inviting them to guest preach even if they have never taken a single preaching class in their seminary career.  This church has truly given everything over to God so that God might use it in the way that is best.  We must not forget this attitude when we go into our own personal lives, though.  What do you have to offer to God? For some of us, maybe we can offer supplies, money, or facilities while others of us may have nothing more than ourselves.  The only thing that we need to remember is that we only need to recognize God’s hand in our life and commit all that we have to God for God’s use and God will make sure that things are done the way they should be.

Through all of this, we must understand that while we try to achieve this “God willing” attitude every day, God understands when we doubt.  Jesus never scolded or left the disciples behind when they doubted- he probably simply chuckled to himself and once again, showed them yet another way that God worked through him.  Yes, he became quite annoyed at times, just as any teacher would when they feel as if they have done everything they can and the student still doesn’t get it.  However, his love and leadership never failed and the disciples always caught a glimpse of understanding, if only for a second.

In one of the lectionary readings for today which was not officially included in today’s service, Paul writes a prayer for the Ephesians and closes this prayer by recognizing God “who by the power at work within us is able to accomplish abundantly far more than all we can ask or imagine (Eph. 3: 20).  I can not think of a better recognition of God than this, especially when thinking of all that God does in fact do that is so far beyond our imagination, just like in today’s readings.

By drawing on the will and actions of God, we are able to reach out to God’s people in a whole different way- a way in which God’s people have acted since the times of Elisha and was widely recognized by Paul.  When we let go and let God use us for God’s work, our lives are enriched in unexpected ways as well as those who we are helping.

Today, I thank God for all that has been accomplished in Ghana using people like Rev. Kissi, Sammy, and Rosa.  I thank God for what has been accomplished through the Starmount family.  I thank God for what has been accomplished using me- someone who could only give herself and questioned everything along the way.  If God can feed five thousand people using only five loaves of bread and two fish, God can certainly use any and all of us.  All we must do is say “I’m here God- use me” and then hold on, because anyone who gives control to God is in for a wild ride.

So, later on today when you hear that knocking on the back of your mind, open up and wait to see what God needs to tell you.  Don’t be upset if there is doubt, and don’t shut God out.  Take on a “God willing” attitude just as the young boy did when he gave Jesus his food, and just as Starmount continues to do.  Don’t back away thinking that what you have isn’t enough, because as long as you have yourself, you have all that God needs to do wondrous things. 

All thanks be to God, who truly does work within each and every one of us to accomplish abundantly far more than all we can ask or imagine. Amen.

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