Thoughts from tonight- some from the discussion, some from personal life (they crept in somehow)...

1) I have never really thought about hell. I don't live my life making sure I don't go to hell. I know God loves me and understands that sometimes I may just screw up. Doesn't mean I am going to use that as an excuse to do stupid stuff, just means that I know that even if I do screw up, I am not going to hell. There are other things in life to worry about.

2) I would rather live my life like a billboard have people want to ask me why I do the things I do, rather than hand out fliers trying to save someone.

3) I am not going to push anymore. Maybe this was part of the "God brings people in your life for a reason- some are here for a little bit, others stay around." The whole thing helped me when I needed it most, and I am happy for that. But at this point, I am not going to continue to try to keep it if I am the only one trying.

4) I am gonna try to cut my alcohol consumption for many reasons. The first being my wallet, the second my weight. Other reasons are in play, but those are the main ones.

5) You can't go back to where you were, but you start fresh and try again. This doesn't mean you start back at best friends right away... you have to work your way to that.