First thought of the night... I would love for Mozart to come back to life just so I can make sure he really dies. I am so tired of his music! I am sure he was great... but when I am studying 10 different Mozart symphonies at once (in 3 classes and doing full analyses of each), he isn't so great.

It has been a crazy long week. Great and terrible.

So last week I was running on this high of having basically no school because of the snow, having the chance to be snowed in with my friend and finally get some time with them, and a few discussions with big people at some potential schools for seminary.

I think the downfall started to happen when we started talking about friends at bible study last week. Granted, it was my idea, but I really didn't expect it to take the turn it did. I thought we would talk about our best friends and why we love them, not why we hate our ex-friends. That just brought up a lot of feelings I had pretty much let go about Ben. As much as I like to think it isn't true, I still hurt a lot in regards to that whole situation and that discussion just kinda threw it in my face.

I will say that as far as trumpet goes, it kinda made up for the friend discussion. I had a great run with Nancy, and an even better lesson with Dr. Bach on Friday. To top it all off, I got the extra burst of energy for trumpet when I got to see Mike again. The sad thing is I won't get to see him again until this summer... maybe.

The weekend was ok... thought too much. Came to some realizations that I had ignored for a while.

And then spent today on the phone trying to save myself from past mistakes.

Great day.

I guess it all just goes to show that we have no idea what is coming next. I have been thrown a lot of curve balls lately that I never expected. It also definitely proves that we have NO control over our lives... all of the control is in the hands of the guy upstairs. We just need to let go and enjoy the ride...